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Dear Mom,

I gave it a week, and the 9th grade isn’t any better.

Dad did see my last post and complained about my word choices.  “There is a fine line, Katherine,” he said in his serious Professor voice, “between appropriate vernacular and vulgar slang.”  I thought he would make it take me down until he just mumbled something (he has a Puerto Rican accent so I don’t always catch all the words) about how he shouldn’t read them anyway.  He’s a college history professor, so dates are more important to him than words, perhaps.

Such as the day you disappeared.

Back to the 9th grade, for now.  As soon as I got on the bus last week, someone yelled “Hey look, it’s Kayleigh Pee-pee!” and everyone laughed (or at least it felt like everyone laughed).  Personally I think it’s sad they’re stuck with Kindergarten humor. Bridget, however, stood up quickly and yelled “Oh yeah, ask me arse!” which I think made everyone go quiet just because they didn’t know it means “Shut up” in Irish slang.  I wonder what Dad would think about the use of the word “arse” on a school bus.

Bridget has been my best friend since about the time you left.  She told the kids to “stuff it” when they started calling me names, and she’s only gotten more vocal since then.  She never turns her Irish temper on the offensive, though, only uses it to defend me.  I’m sure she only defends me because you are Irish, but I am grateful for Bridget’s tall imposing figure and piercing blue eyes.  The fact that we don’t always understand the words she uses, but we certainly understand the tone, is just an added bonus.

I do wonder, though, why now?  I haven’t had any problems with them for a while, and suddenly I’m a target?  I try not to let it make me feel small and insignificant, but it is hard to ignore a bus full of chanting students.  I am petite for my age, or maybe not “for my age” but in general, as you were.  Since most students are physically towering over me, therefore, when they get in my face it’s hard not to feel like an ant about to be squished.  Why the bullying all over again?

Must be High School.



Author: Dr. Sam

Samantha Marks, Psy.D., is a Licensed Psychologist and Author. She previously wrote columns about mental health and families for the San Juan Star, and currently writes material for Tween and Teens with both Fantasy and Mental Health themes. A Fatal Family Secret, the first book in The Files, the second book, A Treacherous Social Game, and the third book, A Perilous Blood Oath, are already released! Book four coming soon!

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